Is love alive?

Chinese is finally over, so I had time to record one song for the CD. (kinda)

I’ll continue tomorrow. Hope it turns out well, cos I want it to be AWESOME. Still havn’t thought of which songs to record, but obviously some of my own. The W song, the D song, the A song, the other A song, the other other A song… They really don’t have names. Haha pathetic. Anyway, quite happy. Will probably meet Andrew on thursday which is great, cos I havn’t seen hi in too long. Not gonna see Aaron till sunday. :( But he was nice, and let me open my birthday present (which has been sitting on my table since october 1st). And it’s awesome, and i’m addicted. (: He’s the best. And oh yes, he finally drew on my wall. He drew a I hahaha. Representing the 22nd. (: So cute.

Good days from today onwards. Meaning a lot of time to write (FINALLY), learn to cook properly, shop, throw out A LOT of my clothes, CHRISTMAS PRESENT SHOPPING/WRAPPING/CARD MAKING, etc. (: How exciting. Okay, just one more paper to go and I’m done.

Anyhow, making a new FB account, and adding people who I actually regard as my friends. Like people I wanna be able to contact easily and all. So yes, I’m deleting all my photos and stuff from my present FB account right now. (: Okay. Sleep time soon. Night world.

what sarah said

never think about the possibilities. void, as in empty.

thing is, i’m sinking.

but you don’t have to worry, i’ll never tell.

hands

all that’s left of her is ashes.

that’s it, that’s all she is. ashes in a marble jar.

and she doesn’t get to be anything else.

turn to stone

(it’s okay. i still have my secret songs that people will never discover.)

22nd month. 2 months away from 2 years. it hasn’t been easy, it will never be easy. but i know that you’re the one for me and with that said, i will never let you go. i love you.

i’m so incredibly happy.

comes and goes

8 random things to say today:

1) I’ve been telling my mommy that I love her every night. She is incredible, and I love her very much.
2) I’m very, very, very blessed to have much more than enough.
3) I keep falling in love, over and over again. I hope this is forever. I love you.
4) I feel joy when I think about what next year will bring, and how I’ll take things in my stride and actually BE HAPPY. (:
5) I can’t wait for christmas-tree-decorating.
6) I want these two weeks to pass, so I have time to write again!!!
7) I am extremely lucky to have people who love me dearly, and give me a million and one chances to better myself. Thank you, all of you.
8) I have a small group of friends. I love my small group of friends, because they care about me, would never ask me to do something I’m not comfortable with, would never fall out with me because I don’t do something that they do, would never judge me, or secretly hate little parts of who I am. And most importantly, I love my small group of friends because my small group of friends love me back. <3

the business of paper stars

just one, because i can’t sleep. (excuses, i know)

i build walls, not bridges. and there you go, the reason why there’s a space between us. people change and people leave, and i’m one of those people. but i need you to know that i never forget. so if it’s of any consolation, you mean more to me than i could ever own up to. and i did know that you never meant it that way. i’m sorry.

but i can’t stay, i can’t stay, i can’t stay, and i can’t be.

meteor shower

i counted how many of my friends didn’t wish me happy birthday.

hmmmm.

and that is why i choose my boyfriend over my friends.

thanks to the people who did, and there were a few that i didn’t expect which was really, really nice. (: plus, my family is awesome, and aaron is so sweet. (: <3

need you now

I’ve been quite addicted to Bon Iver.

Your shirt is still on my chair, and it’s starting to irritate me cos I keep wanting to pick it up and smell it. (HAHA) Mm… The smell of spontaneity. (:

IT JUST STRUCK ME, 21 tomorrow, as well as 17. Strange, ain’t it?

Goodnight, bye dad who’s on the way to board an airplane to Switzerland. Pfft.

leave a light on

if this is what it takes, just to lie with my mistakes.

strange how hard it rains now

come to a crossroad. life is beautiful, on repeat. how many times do you want to hear it before you’re convinced? do you hate waking up every morning knowing that these things don’t get better, and that all this chaos will keep escalating? what happened to the wonderful world we live in? why do we insist on destroying every single good thing God has made in this world? wonder why You trusted us to protect this world, and wonder why we keep betraying Your trust. but most of all, wonder why i’m sitting here wondering instead of doing something about it.

think about it for a while – there are no real excuses, are there?